hectic week. again.

Monday. Free.
Tues. Visit grandma at hospital
Wed. Accompany liam's parents to settle some debt documents
Thurs. Go Muay Thai. Luckily didn't twist ankle or wat.


Fri. BUSY N HECTIC DAY!!. do some in store set up in morn. Den attended Kel lee wedding n i'm the emcee. Then after the dinner went chill out with my colleagues. Was so bloody tired when i hit the pillow. Then..

Sat. Agreed to help out my fren for her some testimonial commercial(which i tot initially). Something which At first tot she need those people interview n answer some feedback about the products.I was late for the meeting n didn't know actually they are looking for actual TV commercial shoot. =.= I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO INTENTION to b a model n i know my limits. Was pretty confused cuz meeting was already half way so i tried to catch up. Didn't understand the reason the producer was totally ignore me thru out the whole meeting. Give me 0% eye contact. At first i brush aside thinking maybe i was late she was pissed with me. Anyway another girl was pretty irritated cuz she n i didn't get in n she says waste her time. For me i just feel a bit ZZzzz plus pretty concuss from fri nite event. It was oni until the girl told me her self esteem hurt, then it set me thinking. Did my self esteem get hurt. To b frank. Yes i do. But thinking of that, wat to do. my face is big n i knew it,on tv will take up 2/3 of screen HAHHAHA. But still wanna thank God cuz i got to know this girl who is working at counselling for gambling association now. which means, i will have alot to talk to her=DD I know God let things happen for a reason.

But no matter how this incident linked back to quite a few unpleasant incidents I had. Back in uni prom 2007, i rmb the DJ who totally sucks, call for people who wore red to go on stage for some games. So my frens at the table cheer me n another girl on, so thinking dun wan the whole atmosphere to be cold, i decide to go up, but at the same time pull this girl up(with some effort). She was a model and actress. So she is pretty. it was only until we got on stage, another girl volunteer to come on stage for the game too, but she was not wearin red(quite random la she den in the first place she should quickly go up y wait til me n my fren gg up le den she quickly appear), so my fren seeing this girl came up, decide to back out, cuz DJ needs only 2 person. At that moment, i was pretty stunned cuz suddenly the 2 of them start to have a " nevermind it's ok u go, i go back" that kind of pushing. i was on stage, stunned dunno how to react. Until the emcee just tell the both of them to stay n told me, " y are u standing there? Go back la!" I was so damn embarrassed. That moment, my self esteem hit rock bottom. KNN. reali. as if i think i pretty want to volunteer. sometime u are just being enthusiastic people mistook u for wannabe. n i told myself, dun let me see that DJ n as long as i work for my company, i won't let my boss engage him as a Emcee for our event.

so these few couple of embarrassing affecting self esteem stuff, makes me wander behaving atas(high class) would be better than easily helpful or available to people?? Hmm..cuz i dun want to hurt my self esteem. i have not much actually.

Anyway after the morn model screening watever, i immediately can go somewhere to vent out my frustration which is KTV!! bloody exp. $25!! kbox reali sucks blood. Told me klunch no more when i reach at 1130am...say all the lunch set sold out. Watever la. But i dun believe. After singing..pia down to sentosa to attend liping n zhen wei ROM. scorching hot sia..but nice ambience la. Now got headache from scorching sun le. =(


oh ya. who can help me..my camera memory card corrupted but i need extract a precious video clip out!!! arhhh.