Ginny's bdae 09

who else bdae could it b other than our dear miss ginny?? i wouldn't want a winnie the pooh on my bdae cake. =x



A winnie the pooh cake and a winnie the ppoh piggy bank with arcade tokens inside=))






we all looked so uniformed!



Mabel was being atrocised by us for not wearing red and white on that day..so she was made to take pic with us last. HAHA.

credits must give to Amber for her thoughtfulness to cut out the cake in such a fashion that the pooh is still intact so that ginny could bring home n frame it up. LOL. cat and mabel are still complaining about how stingy amber is, with the share of cake for them. wat to do, the un-winnie the pooh portion is so little. *shrugs

My Ah Gong

I was shaken when i received the news from my church teacher that my ah gong just passed away, while i was still at austin hill resort with the rest of my fellow church mates, enjoying the breakfast...

I just broke down into tears, wondering, in the end what decision did he make before he leave...

We had 5 days of ritual before the funeral came to a closing..throughout it was endless chanting, citing, quarrels and kids' noise. ashes piling up n smoke that irritates my eyes and nose...it was definitely gg to be a memory for me.Watching ah gong lying in the coffin, it was so unreal. looked like it was somebody else in there. i can't even recgonise him..sunken face, dressed in those traditional chinese costume. i rather my original ah gong, with his fav collar shirt and pants. i can't even touch his body for the last time, cuz only daughters n sons allowed to touch him with a cloth while the 'sai gong' (the guy who carriesout ritual for funeral) chants... i was kinda, pissed off.

All i can do is to make myself useful during this 4 days. taking care of my relatives' belongings and collect money(treasurer). And i learnt one thing, it is more realistic that u are filial to your parents/grandparents when they are alive than chant for them when they are already dead. no point, because i believe that they can't receive at all. if chanting helps, then those without ppl to chant for them, then they go straight to hell is it? I don't think the real God will allow this to happen.

so many procedures to follow, all, one comment: human's doing.
the more u do, the more money u spend, that's what the funeral service ppl wants u to do.

have been reflecting quite alot these few days...like the last time i saw my ah gong before he died. i still holding the slightest hope that he will make it for my wedding.Bt, i am also the one to give up my hope on him when i saw him so frail n weak. i did not want him to suffer any longer too. my aunt posted a qns to me when he was still alive 1 week ago...should they send him to hospital? to me it was a heavy responsibility when u ans this qns. either or, ppl can blame u if things go wrong. human's fav action. pushing the blame. like they are so holy n faultless. so i told my aunt, ah gong is so weak n thin, i couldn't imagine how he can survive the needle and 'torture' in hospital..so ended up they also made the decision not to bring him to hospital..

now i realise, when we love a person's soul that much, we reali hope it will go somewhere(heaven) cuz it will be for eternity.

Praying that my ah ma will be strong emotionally and physically. Lord pls watch over her.

belated bdae post for my 3 friends

Amber must b thrilled when we gave her stitch hamper..i wrapped de leh. =))


even Mabel help to cut the cake..i guess sheshud b more busy than the bottom 2 ba...zzz


Amber was quite ke lian..see 2 ppl trying to act hardworking while we are still singing bdae songs to her.


another loser..



and then...we cele ping's bdae on 17th Aug 09...


huimin was so excited to do the throwing of balloons idea...


I didnt post any pink pyjamas pics of us although we agree to have a party. unfortunately that day alot of us kena period 1st or 2nd day..so knocked out before clock strikes 12..so paiseh huiping treat us stay overnite..but the bed at inter-continental is reali comfy!!!

Next i cele suli's bdae on 24th jul at breeks.
That is why i like candid shot...suli looks so much cheerful n prettier with her natural smile..Wee has realised it, don;t you suli...dun freeze in front of the camera ma. Anyway we always support the idea of cele ppl's bdae with small cake. firstly is economical, 2ndly nobody eat caks nowadays.


There are always prob taking pic on your own..i have short hands.

finali a group pic =))

the 14 most impt people of our lives.

The list is out:

Zhao qi and Suli
Ah Seng and SHao Yun
DInxin and Peiyi
Jun Yan and Shao Mei
Edmund and Yufei
Andrew and Baoli
YaoLiang and Huisin

Don't get me wrong...my intention is not to match make or couple people together and make fun of them. These are the people who wil be marching out on my wedding ceremony. =)

For those people who are worried her husband, his gf or bf will b jealous, ask them to get a life. if they still can't get over it, let me have a one to one counselling with them to wake up their idea. rmb, it has to be perfect 7 . =))

Im blogging again.

2 weeks after Liam left, it's like 2 years of tribulation/hell/torture/agony.
I came to face reality. Liam's parents and money. These are the upmost on my 'things/ppl to avoid' list that I would love to fulfill when liam is away but Lord chose to let me face it.

I recalled the times I prayed for God for certain things. To be less short-tempered. To cast my worry onto Him- in other words less worrisome. To be a financially wise person. N He gave me William's parents and their credit card debt issue. =.='''

I am like already happily packing my stuff from liam house prepared to move back to my own house and isolate from them for one year le, now this has to happen. seriously, initially, i reacted like a selfish freak, grumbled n scolded them(secretly) y they are so selfish, incur this kind of debt, now we have to settled it. i'm telling myself. No way man, i am not gg to help them pay off. i won't allow william to do so too. they came up with this shit, they haf to settle it.

But, when liam found out abt their debt, it was one week before he flies off to Cambodia for 1 yr. Deep in my heart, i start to sprout out alot of negative n panic thoughts God, how?? should I beg or hint Liam to stay and settle it? But God tells me this kind fo things is not gg to be settled within a couple of months so no point william stay back for a mere few days also. So I sum up my courage and tell liam that he should not consider staying back for a few more days cuz it is not going to help. indeed it was true! After he left, there are still so many things that til now, 2 weeks have passed, not much things have tidied up, let alone saying debts repayment plan are settled.

why i say 2 weeks of trials/hell?
Imagine myself facing the 2 old folks alone...one who is always semi-drunk n keep repeating what he says and another one is hearing impaired. Frankly i felt scared to face them alone. Huili, liam's sis is not with me(physically or mentally) to support and help out during the crisis. i felt so alone and scared. I prayed. God miraculously gives me the wisdom to communicate with them. i find the right opportunity to talk to his dad, find out more about his daily routine so as to monitor him. I also learn to build rapport with his mum so as to get closer to her, n ask ehr to be a spy on dad for me. Like if dad is gg to play jackpot again, if she can't stop him, she can call me. Or if dad drinks until cannot control, call me, i will rush down n scold him.

I tell u...she called every single day for rescue..after this 2 week, i realise sometime she is so over reacting that i start to get numb areadi. God sent me her so will i will learn to be less worrisome. She is indeed my test.

after interacting with his parents for 2 weeks, it really let me reflect alot back into the past. What have I done. Ia m nothing but a selfish freak, a hypocrite who goes into church n tot that i am good n God loves me, but once i step out of church, i turn back to the selfish freak again. I shut my doors whenever liam's parents came back home so as not to talk to them. ignore the knocks on the door when his mum wanted to ask/talk to us. i am really disgusted with myself for all these stuff i have done. i can imagine maybe long time ago she want to share with us the debt prob le but we shut her out. i felt so terrible n upset.

I'm keeping myelf emotional balance by keeping more of his parents company, talk to them more, show that i reali care from the bottom of my heart...

Till now i am still trying my best, with God's strength and faith in Him that i will pull thru this trial..