Explanation.

Ok before i go into what really happen between me n dar, pls keep reading tilll the end. hah this is to create suspense. *oi dun scroll all the way down!!!

Btw, i am able to blog all thanks to Dinxin, Liam's responsible brother. He has to redeem himself for not able to be brother for / attend our wedding by helping liam to fix his com. Liam's com has been siao siao/eccentric nowadays. So i have difficulty uploading photo on blog.

23rd may 2010
Liam's com keep hanging or restarting 10 over times until i pek chek. SO i sms Dinxin for SOS. No reply until 24th may Tuesday. Initially i was quite irritated with him!! he said he will reply sms when he change hp. so now no excuse for skipping people's sms!! But xiaoyu laoshi reminded me he is working on shift so may not notice my sms till next day. True enough, he sms/call me n ask what happen, n offer to come down n service the com too!!

So what he did when he reach was to on the com, let it run and access to those black screen part and type some unfathomable codes, afterwards he open up the cpu case carefully as if it is very fragile, remove the ram card, blow it one by one
*i was like scratch head, he say clean dust away.i was like OOOoooooOOh.. den he is like very carefully clean the cooler fan with tissue, wah the whole fan cluttered with thick dust. He says that it may be the prob that leads to com hanged. Fan cannot cool cpu down so cpu will shut down to prevent over heating. wah seeing the way he cleans the fan, really very delicately n seriously. if for me or shaoyun, we already broke the cooler fan while trying to clean the cpu liao. He also clean up the desktop unsued icon, installed lava soft adaware to speed up the whole cpu performance. THANK U DINXIN! treat u prata one day =D *with liam money =3=

Okie, sometime back, i went to view Toa pa yoh methodist church where i may be holding my wedding together with qilei n kevin. =))



so pretty T_T but freaky exp!! $2600 for a few hrs rental. no discount for missionary like liam also *pout lips. some more they just renovate sure will need to recup their investment. i need to clarify to those whom i made them worried. Liam DID set side an amount to rent the church that i desire...wooden bench and tinted glass. y i say we facing cashflow prob now is cuz most of his funds in investment, locked n cant withdraw now. yet need to pay deposit of $800 in june/july period for church rental and $1000 for hdb fee. Need borrow from loan shark first liao =X. unless got kind loan shark with 0% interest =) then i will consider.

Ok back to main topic. wat happen between me n liam. In short, he says recently he notice i complain a bit too much n overboard and i shud learn to pray before i want to rant. And to give thanks to God cuz everything happen for a reason. initially i am really upset. cuz i tot i have learnt not to anyhow rant to people or on blog other than him n fei these few months. N i feel it's very superficial if something happens and u r reali pek chek, u sure won't straight away give thanks. some more i'm a girl ma..i will tend to let emotion rule over me. But wat liam hope to see in me is: if angry => rant to God => pray and calm down => give thanks for what happen then share with people ard me. but what i am doing is rant everything to him!

Not that i dunno what he means, but when women are angry/pek chek or upset, all they need is a LISTENING EAR. not that they dunno how to handle, they just want to vent their frustration. That's all. For me, it seems like, blog i cannot rant cuz will mislead the readers who follow my blog, i dun want to rant to God cuz it is disrespectful and i wil have mind full of vulgarities swimming ard!! Now my loved one and best friend cannot rant, i am equal to an captive or prisoner!

i know i am an easily stress girl. i dun like to give promises and i am scared i cannot keep up to it. Such as arranging appt in advance and canceling last min to face consequences, cuz i noe i sure got something crop up n later the other party sure bue song i cancel appt then i will also bue song that party cuz not i want also!!! Or promise my loved one to do something later forgot/never do then pek chek with myself. But i am trying to improve,and it is really very challenging. Esp when all things come like a gigantic wave to me.

SO sometime i cant help but to feel sacarstic towards dar's environment n mine now. He always takes thing slow n steady maybe with his character and personality plus he is a guy so he sees everything as big pic, but to me it is impossible at such a fast pace environment. n i feel sometime he doesn't seem to understand me le. or he doesnt know that when women rant, they just need to let out air. after that they will feel better. I believe God designs women n men in different ways; we are wired differently and function differently. that made us perfect when we come together as one when we married .

SO recently when i rant abt his family to him, instead of him coaxing me or pacifying me, he start to qns me perhaps i shud start to reflect n not erupt instantly as he notices my ranting is escalating at a alarming rate. N i have been very -ve most of the time in my words n thoughts. THAT MOMENT, i felt so hurt. it was like, hey of cuz u can say that, i'm kena-ing all the shit, n still ask me to react normally???Isn't he asking too much or being a bit cruel on the timeline for me to become better? i feel like a project to him, like a timeline till august when he back i will b a ideal wife to him.

So last few days i reali sian diao. ok fine, since my loved one also sick of me ranting liao, i might as well whatever happen i just rant to random ppl/ or even worse just dun put any emotion to whatever bad things come to me. it is also equal to no reaction. i dun wan to self pity, so i decide not to put effort n emotion to anything bad or unpleasant that is coming my way.

I start to b cheerful again when i chat with him on msn, i know he also feel weird ba. Of cuz ma, it is so superficial. arrrggh. but to me at least just avoid the qns first since i also cannot overnight become rant-less girl. Unless i become a guy.

I really love Dar, i dun want to hurt him and every-time i hurt him it is always the words i used, i reali pek chek with myself too. But it seems frustrating that he didn't see i am trying hard amidst all the nitty gritty problems are coming my way. He dun get the point of how a girl's world of emotion is when she faces pressure or stress.Every-time i grumble to him about his family, i have only 2 clear objectives: 1st is to tell him straight forward that the unseen ugly side of his family members and it horrifies me cuz i am facing it without him around. 2ndly is to let him know that i am still trying to give myself a chance to know them more although i may dislikes certain ways they deal or say things. And to show him that God is the master control of all these things. i know God let EVERY single thing happen for a reason. which is to mould me n pull our r/s closer to HIM. But i also did realise i was too overboard when my 1st objective outweighs the 2nd objective recently. It also upsets dar that he keep hearing the -ve part about his family n yet he has to find ways to encourage me and cheer me up when i got carried away n rant non stop.

I also understand that it is not easy for him to give up prestige job such as commando, high pay high dignity n pride to become a salary-less and stranger in a foreign land to serve God's ministry. I am really proud of him but i seldom say cuz i find it awkward to praise him since we so close =x. So i am also coping here with God's strength and friend's support to live life to the fullest too. to be his back end support.

I think God also 看不下去that we have to cold war while actually things can b clarified n misunderstandings will be cleared. SO HE sent 3 angels to speak to liam abt me, as a woman. So liam afterwards apologized. to b frank, i was very happy =p not that i won the argument, but he finally understands!!! like finally!!!

Hee, so now he tells me he will b my venting machines once more cuz he wants to, haha, budden i decide i will filter MORE when i talk to him next time. I will share with him the blessings i see amidst all those unhappy incidents so he does not have to worry abt me coping with his stuff in spore =)

In conclusion, we are a happy couple now and i throw away the thoughts of removing our wedding pic from fb n blog le. haha =X

From FU->PC->SD

I have no more place to rant. blog is open, friends are limited, Loved one is sick of me ranting. i guess i shud have a password protected blog to rant. ;)

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Mother's day 2010

Celebrate Mother's day with my aunt n mum at a coffee shop nearby our house. They all take this opportunity to 'tok4' me. ATe crabs, fish which amounts to $123!!! my heart is dripping blood sia...

After zi char, we have cake cutting to cele~~
Anyway my cousin sponsored DURIAN cake from prima deli. The durian is really really fresh n yummy =3

Family Pics~~


My mum always look beautiful when she smile. n look sibeh bue song when she doesn't. same for me. LOL.

My cousin with her cap permanently glued to her head.





My cousin always like to bicker with her dad. i enjoy seeing them bickering. LOL. They always have the i want to suan1 u liao face. ahahah

I'm a laggard.

After successfully finish watching Taiwanese dramas 海派甜心n 败犬女王...i lag like dunno for how long before i start to have the motivation of go after dramas again.Seriously, it's tiring and energy sapping cuz u would want to watch all 21 episodes in 1 day hahaha.

Frankly speaking, i'm not a drama person. So u dun see myself glued to TV all the time. I don't even on the tv for like very long until i have problem navigating channels with the remote control when i went back my house in Yishun. My aunt has the unbelievable look on her face when i press volume instead of channel when she requested change of channel for her =X

I have been hearing good comments about this drama called Autumn's Concerto 下一站幸福。 That time when i hear about it den i realised Vanesse Wu(formal F4) is the main lead, i have no interest at all ahhaha..But last week i was really bored so i decide to give this drama a try anyway. And I WAS GLUED to PC screen throughout the whole episode 1. it was really a fresh change from usual lovey dovey drama series as this encompasses how the couple become husband n wife and even talk about their family life.

I find it pretty similar to the life that i am heading into right now, a marriage life...so when i see the mtv and the images from website about this drama, with the cute little boy 小小彬 as their child, i'm actually inspired to start have a child before 30 years old. =p hopefully it's not on impulse haha.

But as i watch from epi 2 onwards, i was pretty disturbed and uncomfortable by the plot about how the female lead is having sexually harassed by her step father. Because it sorta happened to me and i have really unhappy memories about it.I have shared with some of my friends about it so shall not elaborate here...

Anyway highly recommended!!!

My crazy neighbor

Paiseh ppl have been slacking n not blogging.

Nevertheless alot happening things but too lazy to tell. Recently my yishun home next door neighbor is getting a little crazy n unstable.

From sweeping my aunt n family with broom to spitting on her, splashing oil from kitchen window to ours, and deliberating sunning her undies in our kitchen window direction.

Conclusion: she is getting a little bored and needs attention.

She even terrorize the same floor neighbor by scolding her for washing the floor too much and all the filthy water flow to her side. that neighbor from then onwards nvr wash floor liao. HAHA good also save water bill n cure her 洁癖. The crazy neighbor even spit into her altar for putting incense de. now that auntie dun dare to bai bai liao.

We super cannot tahan her till we fix cctv camera outside our home den she complain to town council. the town council also super cannot make it. says we will b charged for doing that. for their infor, we did not do anything to invade other neighbor's privacy, we are just safe guarding our interest.

One day should report her to NEW PAPER. heard new paper super efficient in interrogate ppl.

So far, God has been taking care of me, i haven kena her sweeping power. trust me i snatch her broom like how my mum did.

Wedding progress~~gallery display

For those who dunno, im gg to have a mini photo gallery on my wedding day. But the fixture will be d.i.y to make it more personal and suit my theme...

On courtesy of Amber n Nic her husband, who helped me scout for the display materials n bought it. to the extent Nic has to take leave to receive the boards....gam xia!!!


on 3 April, Just so happen Amber's father in law is coming her house to fix bathroom mirror, she says it's an opportunity to ask him help fixing my gallery.


Our task is to fix all 12 hinges onto the board to make it into a display stand...


Once Amber's father in law arrives, we seek his professional advice before embarking on the fixing of my galery display for my wedding...


I super sux at D.I.Y stuff espt hings that requires strength.
Seeing Amber's FIL fixing the hiinges with 4 nails in less than 2min, i tell myself, there's nothing difficult n challenging wat..seem easy..so i start trying...

kaoz..i cannot imagine myself taking 15min just to get one nail into the board. some more it becomes crooked and even harder to screw it in. = =

In the process, me and Amber spoilt 2 nails..and we told ourselves to stop cuz don;t have spare nails..Home Fx very mao1 one, give exact number of nails.
Left one is the spoilt one, due to over twisting n turning by me n amber ahahha..right side is the original appearance of it. =X


Luckily Amber's father-in-law brought his whole tool bag, so there are some spare nails so we start digging to replace those me and Amber spoiled.


After much struggles, we decided to give up and beg for SOS.
Nicholas's dad finished fixing each hinge in less than 2min. = = me and Amber took like 35min per hinge. Super inefficient n waste of effort..


Completed, and it stands firmly on the ground!!!

Yea, finally!!!