My grandma.

Taken in 2004, when i officially bring liam to visit my grandparents in Johor.



This was taken in 2008. She still looks so bright and healthy.




She has departed on 25th June 2010, ending her misery under the tubes of agony. To join Grandpa, to me i believe Heaven.


My regret.

Grandma not able to witness my wedding
She is not able to travel around the World.

Recalling...

All these years she has been slogging like mule in Msia, selling prawn noodle, carrying heavy pot of soups and cooking noodle and serving customers. she sells because Grandpa wants her to. so got money. She is living in a World that constantly have to 看家人脸色。。。she never really 真正快乐过。 She has so many grand children, but I never see her really smile from her bottom of her heart. Yet i can't do much to help.

I'm not really filial, not even close to what a granddaughter should be. I am only doing minimal. and i am ashamed of myself. I admit after when i grew up, i felt distant from her. Even when she is in hospital, i seldom visit her. I dun wan any excuse from anybody in favor of me. i want to be frank with God. I am lazy, and i dun really care about Grandma. So now she is gone, i do not deserve to cry. Those who are really heart broken are my aunts and uncles. What hurts me is my aunt and those loved one, heart pain n sorrowful. Now gg to be embroiled in another big family war. Pls, she has already gone home, can stop all the nonsense already?

God speaking to me:

神的意念高过人的意念。 Now this sentence is so close to my heart.