Today is my official day of lookin after liam's mother day from now on..=(( i hope im coping fine..de moment i reach her house, she started complaining n grumbling how sad she was cuz she cant move her both hands cuz it hurts..den she say life is meaningless n she wanted commit suicide. Liam, is tis wat u face for the past like 20 years?? i noe she easily perk up n emotional but its too much when she say she wan end her life. i kinda frustrated n 'scolded' her dat y life meaningless?? she got a daughter areadi workin n married liao..den got a filial son who was bz oversea training..isnt tis enuff to make her contented or at least a bit satisfied? den she sorta quieten down. liam i oso noe she say say nia..luckily she say, cuz i analyse to u b4 rite? those keep say dey wan die r the most afraid to die but those always quiet de u tot he's okie de next moment u got news dat he jus committed suicide..so i some how not stress or worried when she mention it. i noe she jus lonely wan grumble. luckily my exam over liao or else maybe de one committing suicide wil b me. i bring pipi wit me=D

yest kinda stressed n upset cuz nvr go c yr mum in the end. was late in the nite cum other reasons which i had stated...but keep thinkin felt dat im veri selfish. if u were contactable u definitely would wan me to visit i keep tellin myself. so end up cryin a bit..luckily yr qing2 fu4 miss jun yan was online so i consulted him on tis matter. he say no matter wat muz go visit..yi si yi si oos muz go. so in the end i heed his advice cum my guilty conscience i went today. reali thank God dat i went becuz heard from huili(liam's sis) today yr mum was expectin me to go visit her last nite but i nvr turn up. aiya tot yr sis dere le so no need me ma..

but i realise im wrong..today yr sis got work, den no one at home..oni yr mum..when i reached yr place wit fei(whom i force to go wit me cuz i bu4 kan1 ji4 mo4) yr mum was restin...den dad wit ah ma at coffee shop, drinkin. seriously i feel like strangling him alive. can he pls dun drink at tis pt of time??? if im at home no prb i can help tk care of yr mum. wat if i workin time..den yr poor mum how??? zzz..so i give yr dad a piece of my mind today. tellin him dun drink so much n when i was scoldin him, he was drunk!!!! n its in de middle of the day. not at nite k. turbine(another way of scoldin vulgarities) haiz..reali tiring leh..i feel tiring for u darling..i wish i was as cool or cold-blooded as yr sis or bo chap as her den i wldn't feel so stress up. but one thing i abit bu shuang is, tml is monday her off day n she not comin home to accompany yr mum lor. wat duh..ask her y she say she got stuff to do..turbine! x 100 halow...i dun mind u dun come back often but at least come back tml can?? yr stuff more impt den mum issit??? wat duh. i jus say straight dat she need come home at least one of these days..no matter wat she's daughter im not lor..yr mum more or less oso wan yr sis to accompany her de wat. dun give lame excuse like oh sis married over le so not so much freedom to come back niang2 jia1 as often as she wish. pls la, if she wan b so traditional, den follow every filial things dat confucious once said la. den wan so old fashioned in mindset dun b morden in dressin k? every thign back to 80s, those pu2 shu4 kind. shuan4 le4. i jus feel dat if she tink dat i wil tk care of yr mum den she can dun care den she carry on lor. tis show how filial she is.

n seriously i cant say im filial but at least i do wat i can do though not good or perfect but im doin wat i can. so u over at austrialia won b worried cuz u got a gf who can help for a while. though yr mum mention not to let u noe but i stil wan blog n let u noe the situation in spore. everything was so last min dat i had to ask my su4su4 to ship over my clothes n i have to forgo ah hui bdae cele today jus to tk care of yr mum. i dun mind actuali. jus hope she alrite=)

oh ya kanasai..tink too dependent on u liao. went shing siong to stock up food for yr mum n dad=.=''' carry all the da bao xiao ba of stuff nearly kills me..tink i b de next one to kana hand injury. luckily got sum of yr money left wit me or else yr parents eat grass de whole week liao. yr mum definitely no money den yr dad squander all de money on beer le wat de hell..tink more blood boils more. stock up instant noodle yr fav, biscuits for mum milk for dad cuz he has fragile bones(tk note hor) eh ntg for pipi=xxx haha today help yr mum wash her hair cuz her hand cant reali move..den wash yr super smelly n disgustin helmet. oh ya ah yong(liam sis husband) nvr help u air yr helmet wor..turbine. dunno y but can i jus #$^$%&#$@ dem for once???. okie i feel better le thank you.

darling rmb to come back soon wor..miss u. (angry stare) i dun mind doin one week of household chores but i cant stand one week of loneliness in yr room w/o u=((((