where is meijing?????

below are some peeks into a few gowns i tried...



i cannot take this sloped gown. i looked off waist




i like the sweet heart cutting..the designer said i looked good in almost any colors cuz of my skin tone, fair. but i choose to defer. i have yellowish skin tone. cannot take certain colors too.




i'm hanging seaweed on my gown. =( i dun like pong pong gown. so overtly sweet n princessy. if u say can find rock n roll feel out of princessy gown, i dun mind.



short on front n long on back. if u dun want look even shorter. dun try that. =( but i liked black n white together.


bareback. i must admit. i dun look good with bareback..i got hairy back..n i need a skin changeover.


i want me back!

i want the girl who has to blog in order to stay alive.

Have been as usual busy with work. duhs who are not busy with work. but mine eats into my sat n sometime sun. which i hate to admit, if not for bonus n sales, i would have rebeled.

I have to really thank Shaomei and qiwei who are sharing my load to blog n maintain my church blog. if not i will have many backdated blogs to update. loading photos reali take forever. thank you sisters!

I really have alot to share. and my thoughts are overflowing n oozing out from my brain. no more storage in my brain le!!

i'm back listening to yes93.3. yes i rmb i critised about how the djs are talking more and playing less songs but i am wrong. just so happen i always bump into morn slot. but i have to say, i reali appreciate their talk, made me perk up for the day. and i realised if i kept listening to my limtied selection of songs on my phone, i will die of boredom. music is very much my nutrients n colors in my life. i'm souless if my life is devoid of that. and im very looking forward to sing my heart out of my upcoming ktv session. i still dream about forming a band. i want to perform for the Lord. yes i want.

liam has left singapore for almsot 2 months. it seemed forever. not becuz i missed him. but becuz im left to face his parents. it was reali tough. many people have commented liam got me, a good wife. but i rather put it in another way. i owe him. after how much he has given me, it's only natural i have to repay. since i haf no money to do so, i will use my time for his family. so people dun made me look like i'm a saint. i am no saint. i am tolerating his parents childish behavior and sometimes adsurd thinking. i'm screaming deep in my heart for goodness sake. this morn his dad just used a plier to pull out one of his tooth which seemed shaky. ya it's true. n he can't stop bleeding. gosh. yet i haf to tell myself it's nothing cuz people in old times no dentist also stayed alive. no bacterial infection too. but his mum is not helping n over reacting. sms me in the afternoon dad cannot stop bleeding. luckily i mastered the art of not over react when i saw her sms.

i been very busy settling bank debt issue, dun get me wrong i haf no money to pay for his dad debt but am helping to minimise his debt by helping him manage his salary every month. brought him to emotional cousnelling legal counselling, now upcoming is alcohol counselling. I think God wants me to experience the feeling of having a dad. now i am experiencing.

bought groceries every now n den. God is realli fulfilling my dream. i used to yearn buying groceries for my family and my mum will cook for me. the fun of walking down the cold storage isle looking at fresh food and milk. now i am doing it. to stock up for liam's parents so they will not die of hunger. i think i got too greedy, bought too much groceries to the extent i cannot carry. over stretch my shoulders and hand muscles. now they are aching. i am cursing n swearing on my way back. reali miss the times when i can load groceries on liam's bike box and under his bike seat. great. no more. and i am too stingy to take cab back. too bad for me.

i just hope n pray that after all these i have done for his parents, they will not go abck to their previous lifestyle and appreciate me. and hs dad in times will drink less.

and have to thank xiaoyu laoshi and pastor lucy who made their trip down every thurs to cousnel his dad on drinking issue. really happy they are there to support me. and wenqing laoshi who take his leave day to accompanied me n dad to creditcard counselling. another moral support booster=))

zhaoqi's parents, who always give me a lift back home after prayer meeting every wed. saved my agony of 1hr of travelling. i reali in debt to them. so peipei n qiqi, if u have any favor i will be glad to help! my only way to repay le.

lastly, qilei n kevin, who has been my moral support to scout for the gowns i like. free transport occassionally free meals. i feel like a leech. =x but they keep em looking forward to my wedding. it's always good to ahve someone to discuss n ttalk about the same topic with u. God reali pampers me. now got ginny, qilei and livia to talk abt wedding topic with me. i am not alone=)